Becoming Aware

Awareness = the cause of my experience (you happen, you create)

Unconsciousness = the effect of my experience (the illusion that experience happens to you)

Conscious living = you choosing and causing your experience.

I am learning (remembering) how to love without pain; let go without pain; create without pain. I am, instead, being in and acting out of joy.

God= Joy, Truth, Love

All are interchangeable. Truth leads to joy, joy to love, love to truth, and so on.

Joy= highest thought

Truth= clearest words

Love= grandest feeling

My soul is not really mine. The soul that is me is God; is true oneness; ultimate truth, complete presence, loving compassion and highest potential. To speak with God is to first listen to, trust and affirm the soul within.

My highest potential is who I really am.

The most rapid way to change a thought pattern - that which continues to create an experience - is to reverse the "thought-word-deed process".

Do the deed (action) you want to have the new thought about. Then say the words that you want to have your new thought about. Do this often enough and you'll train the mind to think a new way.

Do the deed, affirm it in your words, affirm it in your thoughts. In time, this will come effortlessly, for experiences lead to thoughts and thoughts lead to experiences.

Evolution is about changing your mind, letting go of old thought patterns that serve no good-those which hold you from changing for the better.

Changing for the better:

Do not hide. Hiding and avoiding only prolongs the suffering. When the moment arises to deal with your reality - take it as an opportunity to evolve. Remember, often times you must first do the deed, and then think about it later. I always feels so enlightened when I get something taken care of. Why not have instant enlightenment? It is pointless to fear consequence - or anything for that matter. Be present and aware and intuition (God/Soul) will guide you.

God always leads us to the perfect opportunities to experience exactly what we plan to experience. What we actually experience depends on how we think and act within that experience. Enough with the wanting! It is up to us to choose to be present, compassionate and responsible. It is up to us to choose the higher path. In every moment and in every relationship and interaction we are given the responsibility to choose to be who we really are. Do no deny your true self! You are a beautiful, intelligent, compassionate and courageous soul. You are a unique and extraordinarily valuable presence in every moment of existence. Be that which comes to you intuitively. Be who you really are!

Converstations with God

I've been reading this book on and off, reading and re-reading: Conversations with God by Neale D. Walsch
I am so fortunate to have been given this, so blessed. Thank you.

Some quotes I'm soaking in- I'll add more later...

Sacred Law of the Universe: Allow each soul to walk its path.

What you resist persists. What you look at disappears.

All that is required is to know this: For you are the creator of your reality, and life can show up no other way for you than that which you think it will. You think it into being.

You are no longer concerned with the acceptance and approval of the world. You are no longer satisfied with what that has brought to you. You are no longer pleased with what it has given to others. You want the pain to stop, the suffering to stop, the illusion to end. You have had enough of this world as it presently is. You seek a newer world.
Seek it no longer. Now call it forth!
Go to your Highest Thought about yourself. Imagine the you that you would be if you lived that thought every day. Imagine what you would think, do and say, and how you would respond to what others do and say.
Do you see any difference between that projection and what you think, do and say now?
Now, having seen the differences where you are and where you want to be, begin to change-consciously change- your thoughts, words, and actions to match your grandest vision.
This is a call to stop such unconscious living. it is a challenge to which your soul has called you from the beginning of time.

Emotion is the power which attracts. That which you fear strongly, you will experience. Emotion is energy in motion. When you move energy, you create effect. If you move through energy, you create matter.
Thought is pure energy. Every thought you have, have ever had, and will ever have is creative.

To live your life without expectation-without the need for specific results-that is freedom. That is Godliness.

Once you rise to a level of God consciousness you will understand that you are not responsible for any other human soul, and that while it is commendable to with every soul to live in comfort, each soul must choose-is choosing-irs own destiny this instant.
Clearly, it is not the highest action to deliberately abuse or destroy another. Clearly, it is equally inappropriate to neglect the needs of those you have caused to be dependant on you.
Your job is to render them independent; to teach them as quickly and completely as possible how to get along without you. For you are no blessing to them so as long as they need you to survive, but bless them truly only in the moment they realize you are unnecessary.
In the same sense God's greatest moment is the moment you realize you need no God.
A true God is no One with the most servants, but One who serves the most, therby making Gods of all others.

Love is the summation of all feelings. Thus, for the soul to experience perfect love, it must experience every human feeling. The purpose of the human soul is to experience all of it - so that it can be all of it.

Earth Day

So beautiful!

I had a blast today hangin with awesome kids. I realized that none of their teachers celebrated Earth Day. I think one or two other after school staff planted seeds. I was all about making a big deal about it. I hung up posters and copied off earth-themed coloring pages and word searches and planned some activities. I figure, the one day of the year we are inclined to celebrate our mother earth- it ought to be the biggest eco-groovy party on Earth! Were talkin bigger than new years and even X-mas. Though most of the kids had no idea it was Earth Day. When I asked them about it, the ones who knew about Earth Day heard about it through Nickelodeon. They were advertising it, asking kids to turn off the TV for one minute, 9pm tonight. So I gathered together about 10 upper graders and we talked about what Earth Day means - how Earth is constantly providing for us life, the problems of pollution, ect. I asked them what they think they could do to give back to Earth. We got pretty jazzed up about it. We declared it to be Earth Week.

We made Earth Day signs out of recycled paper, marched and paraded around the school chanting, "Go green! Hug a tree! Every day is Earth Day!" (they made that one up) & "Reduce, reuse, recycle!" We picked up trash off the ground and hugged trees along the way (some of them kissed the leaves and flowers. On girl fell to the ground a few times, asking everyone to hug the ground, hah. We got some more kids to join us in our March too. Afterwards we planted seedlings in the garden then planned our enrichment for Friday. We (the 6th graders and I) are working on getting the kinders and/or 1st&2nd graders around the garden to play an Earth Week Game. I'm thinking about a Shoot Off (like basketball) but with various recyclable materials and labeled baskets - though the shapes and sizes may prove hard to toss - so I'll probably go with some kind of co-operative relay. Earth-friendly prizes?

rejoicing

Feel me
You are getting warmer
I am with you now
I open my hands to you
Show you my palms
We gaze. My eyes pierce into you.
I see you. Do you see me?
This love is powerful
Oh the intensity of my stare!
Too good to be true!
How impossible! In the flesh!
Completely exposed
The truth overcomes you

Pulsing your veins
Radiating anticipation
Flushes you with excitement
Heart pounding your breast
I curl my lips up to send you a smile
I open up my love and breath it into you
Shifting into a slow steady rhythm
Your chest rises up and your neck
Floats back gently
Eyes rolling back in ecstasy
Falling slowly
My body carries yours
Slowly to earth.

Open your eyes
I am here with you now
Quietly rejoicing,
We are one
In arms, hearts in sync
Finally we are found
In each others arms
Our hearts beating as one
Rejoicing WE ARE ONE!
Our smiling eyes flowing as rivers
Laughing!
Laughing!
Laughing!

A Refresher

To myself and to readers alike:

Ask and thou shall receive.
How thou shall recognize the gift
Remains a beautiful mystery.

I dont know the complexities of what makes all of these thoughts bring into manifestation the experiences I partake it. When I connect with someone on a genuine level, there is healing and affirmation. We are one.

I am letting you know that I am here with you - and I love you for who you are, really I do. I see that. Its so for real. How did I forget? Did I ? What happened - where did I go. Where where you? There is nowhere to hide! Open up, let the love flow in.
I know! Its so intense! WOW!! I resist it at first. I can't believe it! Oh my GOD! You are really here with me right now. Where do we go, what do we say and do? Nothing! Just be in this. Lets be amazed. Its okay! Its more than okay, its essential. Let the amazement overcome you! Its okay, show me! I love you for who you are. We are letting oneanother live well. The tension rolls away. I am here with you and all is well. You are beautiful.

This week I connected with some lovely people. We lived as a community. Giving, growing, learning, embracing. Good times for sure. I could list off all the awesome experiences yet what comes to me in as I type brings simple joy. I'll type a little poem that I wrote during a poetry activity:
I shared it with the whole group at the end of the day.

The Body Knows

"Hold on. Are you for real?"
The mantra echoes
It follows me begging me to return
Are you for real?
Wait. Stop. Breathe. Really feel this.
Drop into the body
Balance in stillness
Smile when you feel the perpetual motion
The body beats
Moving with an intricate rhythm
The body hints
The body reminds us
And then begs us to listen.
The mind runs with a thought
Struggling in wanting everyone else listen
Wishing everyone else to learn
No need to speak
The mind is no reflection of these words.
There is no way of knowing
Feel me.

The body aches and the mind complies
My shoulders relax and I release a sigh
I am feeling. I am going within.
There is nothing for the mind to know
So let go.

Now rest the mind in mystery
No future, no history
The body misses you my friend!
Feel it, move it
Breathe it, love it!
The body burns and yearns
Not only the mind
The body learns

We are one.
There is no mind without body
No body without mind
All is within.

You see? Me, my, I,
We exchange
Give and take
Our body wakes
A quiet and distinctive vibration helps us idle
Releasing into its rhythm, I smile
All the while
The body hums
The mind numbs
The push and pull begs us to let go.

At the top there are no more prizes
The struggle has no end and no reward.
Its all happening in the magical mystery of now.
No fear! The magic is now revealed!
We are present. mmm...
The mind can not know
Yet can rest in knowing
We give and receieve with as a whole
Seperation is an illusion.

The body turns away from the current
Floating down stream the body flows
You and I are one
The body knows.

The garden is growing! So I've finally got the school's garden up and running. The sprouts reached the surface of the soil and their leaves are gathering energy to shoot towards the sky. Last week I fake planted beets and each class came by to harvest them for juice! We drank apple, beet, ginger, and carrot juices. They loved it. We created a huge wall sized poster/mural of the garden. Its fantastical! We set our intentions into the soil and art. The garden gives back to us in the future. I don't know if I'll get tired of the constant requests to make fresh juice again. I brought my juicer back yesterday and played some nutritional whole foods matching games. Today I'll meet with the gardening students (every Friday). Erin from Redwood Roots Educational Farm will join us (every other Friday) to enrich us with farming knowledge and some tasty seasonal veggies! I wonder what she will bring today? Once again I must rejoice! Life is so good...

LIFE is so good

I decided to apologize to the glasses. I didn't forget! I knew they would show up some day soon. My eyes missed them so dearly. Yesterday they came back to me. I then celebrated, "life is so good." I have great depth perception! I can see whats right in front of me and what once seemed so far away now comes into focus. All is well and I am walking the yellow brick road of righteousness! I am gathering together all the missing pieces. I am almost totally ready. There is no doubt in my mind that when the time arrives I will be total and the last piece will be a grand finale! The end of something old into something familiar yet so spectacularly new! The party has started. The people are dancing. Come on and ride the love train everybody. We're gaining speed. The pendulum is swinging like never before! Now it spins in circles, right round like a record baby. Right round, right round. Oh yeah, life is so so very good.