Familiar Sensations

Not our memories
Not our dreams
Not our fantasies
Nor any revelries

Not a mystery of
When, where, why or how
But NOW!

We are,
Pulsating lights
Beaconing frequencies
Frequently out of sight
Circulating fleeting moments
As the stars flicker in the night

We are,
In peaceful stillness
Radar detecting vibrations
Dancing a space-time twist
Rendering familiar sensations

Though memories aside
We still reside
In mind

Meaning in Life

What does it all mean? There must be a reason, right? Sure, our lives are full of meanings and reasons - but only because we create and choose them. Often times we find ourselves in moments that demand of us difficult decisions. We tend to create problems and then try hard to solve them. Most of us have learned that to find the answers to our questions we must analyze, examine, reason, strive and even suffer for the truth. Many of us also find it difficult to make decisions without first discovering what our over-all purpose is in life.

Maybe you have decided to release your need for a so-called universal truth, reality, meaning and purpose. In doing so you have found that your decisions come naturally and intuitively. Though the pursuit for truth can be entertaining and enriching, you realize that the strife and struggle is actually unnecessary.

It is my choice to believe that life is just as simple or complex as I decide it to be; that it is totally up to me to choose the way I think and act and so live. The following personal truths and affirmations remind me that I do not need meaning in order to choose purpose.

• Experiences have no inherent meaning.
  
  
• I cannot truly understand any experience.

• I always choose the meaning that I give to my experiences.
  

• I give meaning to my experiences because I think and so decide that they contain meaning. I create an illusion.
  
  
• My state of mind is not generated for the reasons I think.

• The thoughts I render do not mean anything.
  

• All thoughts are rooted in the past and are made up to entertain and distract the mind from the present moment.
  
  
• I cannot think joyness into my life. True happiness is experienced in the thoughtless stillness of every moment.

• By clearing my mind of giving meaning to the past I will discontinue to create more of the same now. Instead of reacting (from the past), I may choose to act (in the present).
  
  
• There is no reality but the one I create.
  

• In order to discontinue to re-create undesirable experiences, I must dis-identify with the memories of an undesirable past. I am not 'my' past. I am here now.
  

• As all thoughts are meaningless, so to is my experience of this life. I remain equanimous with this truth.
  
  
• Though there is no inherent meaning to my experiences, there always exists a given purpose.
  
  
• Whether subtle or profound, purpose is always changing. It is found in the thoughtless experience of NOW. I am aware of, receive and accept this gift as I am aware of, receive and accept my self.
  
  
• As I am aware of and acknowledge the experience of presence, I am free to choose the gift of purpose. It is in this space that I make the best decisions.
  

The Leaves that are Green

I was twenty-one years when I wrote this song.
I'm twenty-two now but I won't be for long
Time hurries on.
And the leaves that are green turn to brown,
And they wither with the wind,
And they crumble in your hand.

Once my heart was filled with the love of a girl.
I held her close, but she faded in the night
Like a poem I meant to write.
And the leaves that are green turn to brown,
And they wither with the wind,
And they crumble in your hand.

I threw a pebble in a brook
And watched the ripples run away
And they never made a sound.
And the leaves that are green turned to brown,
And they wither with the wind,
And they crumble in your hand.

Hello, Hello, Hello, Hello,
Good-bye, Good-bye, Good-bye, Good-bye,
That's all there is.
And the leaves that are green turned to brown.

~Paul Simon