Had another lucid dream this morning. Again, trying to convince someone else that it is a dream, still feeling obligated (attached) to not being in full control of dream creation. I believe this dilemma must first be solved in waking state, something to do with taking charge of my own creation and staying confident. I can't change the mind of others but I can change this mind.
Another topic: I am doing an internal cleanse. Last night I began treatment with an herbal cleanser supplement thats to be taken every night for a week. This is followed by a simple yet nutritious diet.
Monday 09/09:woke at 7:30a
7:45 - Green Tea Kombucha
8:50 - Fresh carrot juice w/wheatgrass
10:30 - Two apples, 2 tbsp raw ground chia seeds in green fruit juice and juice plus supplement
12:30 - Spinach salad with radish and sprouted almonds
So far so good, maybe overload on nutrition? I dont need to eat anything else all day now, but I will get hunger pains so I'll probably have miso soup.
I NOW EAT CHIA pets - ancient revived superfood. Well I dont eat the pet, but I did order 3lbs of raw seed online. I just got it in the mail today. Here goes my trial experience...
Finished the day with:
2:00 - grape juice
3:45 - 1 apple
5:00 - apple juice, 1 "almond joy" raw cookie
6:30 - 1 glass kombucha
7:00 - bowl of beet soup w/sprouted azuki beans
8:00 - internal cleanser (3 pills)
Tuesday 09/10 (break from cleanse - flushing too intense)
I opened the love gift Casey sent me, I found these super yummy treats, and some patches. How thoughtful! I resisted opening everything but the treats. Casey rocks...
wake at 8:00a
8:05 - 1 glass kombucha
8:20 - 2 double chocolate love-cake balls (from Casey, yum thanks!) & 2 cups black tea
12:00 - 1 apple
1:00 - 1 glass kombucha, 1 small glass of ground chia w/ green juice
1:15 - 2 tomato sauce and fresh basil sandwiches w/ crimini mushrooms (full)
No supplements yet, not cleansing today, but thats okay. I am releasing a lot through the bowls, wowza. Today I make do with whats in the fridge. Left-overs!
My cell phone has returned. A kid stole it and his mom made him bring it back. My life is back in order once again. I can survive cause I can communicate. Life is good.
Finished the day with:
6:30 - two glasses kombucha, 1 "almond joy" raw cookie
7:00 - spinach salad with sprouted quinoa
8:00 - 3 slices jazzed up winco pizza
no supplements, no cleanse
Wednesday 02/11/09wake at 7:30
7:45 - 1.5 cups black coffee (buzz)
8:00 - 1 of Casey's double chocolate love-cake balls (more buzz)
10:30 - juice plus©, 1 tangerine, 1 cup of 2 tbsp ground chia gelled in kefir & green juice w/fresh blueberries
12:45 - salad w/ sprouted quinoa & almonds
...more food...
alright, so I didnt go through with it yet again. I'm always waiting for the perfect circumstances to do this cleanse I've been trying and putting of for like, a year now. Its hard, just to go for a week without eating inappropriately. Its getting to be something that I feel I must overcome. This is a habit I really need to break. The binge eating must cease! I need to have restful sleep. I want to dream! The best thing I can do for this body is to stop eating so late at night. I will give my stomach at least 2 hours to digest before resting this head - this I MUST do.
